please excuse the quarter-life crisis...

you engaged and married ppl suck! okay, just kidding... but seriously, i'm jealous... you couples are so happy and lovey dovey, you get to see each other every day, and hold each other every night... and what do i have? that's right - a boyfriend who loves me very much, but is moving to another hemisphere for a few years! i'm jealous of ppl in relationships that are actually progressing... everytime chris and i think we're coming up on a point in our lives where we can start planning for a real future, something happens that pushes things backwards... and while chris and i have come a long way as individuals since we graduated, i feel like our relationship is still at the same place: just waiting to see where it's gonna go and how we're gonna make it work... it's the same questions and worries, but this time it feels more intense... when we graduated, we'd only been together a little over a year and a half. I was pretty willing to be patient to find out where this life adventure was gonna lead me. But now, after a little more than 4 years, my patience isn't what it used to be... like tom cochran sings, "Life is a highway..." but my car keeps stalling... and believe me, if that car was my saturn she would have been in the shop so fast it would have made your head spin. But the car on my road trip of life isn't a real car - it's a relationship. And there's not really a relationship shop where you can go to have someone take a look at it and fix it right up and get you back on the road again. Nope, this is a matter you have to take into your own hands. Now, say there's two ppl in the car, car stalls, one person gets out and pushes while the other one steers. Is that how you're supposed to take matters into your own hands? I think no. Here's how I think that works: both ppl stay in the car, they hold hands and start to talk... through the talking, the road begins to change. It becomes more smooth and even. then it happens - the car starts to move on it's own! there's less friction so the car is able to move more freely. And as long as the passengers keep communicating about their wants and needs, there will be smooth sailing. And you can get back on that road trip of life. There are lots of other driving/car metaphors i could use (i.e. ticketed for driving too slow, wreckless driving, rest areas...) but i'll refrain, i've used too many already...

anyway, i guess what i'm trying to say is, I can either continue letting my car stall, or i can start talking. And for those of you who've only read this post, you probably think you know what my choice will be. But those who really know me know that my decision won't be that easy. I may appear to be a strong person - but i am weak when it comes to talking, especially about the important things. But when something is important enough, there's no stopping me. I am princess - hear me roar!!! hehe - okay, getting carried away...

alright - enough of that... lets talk about something else... in a few weeks i'll be turning a quarter of a century old (thus the post title - but i guess since the average life expectancy is around 75, it should be a one-third life crisis)... and maybe that's why i'm reevaluating where i am, and where i want to be... but a quarter of a century!!! wow...

this week at work, i broke my computer... i've been without for 3 days... it was tough... hopefully, it will be back on monday when i go in... i don't know how much longer i can entertain myself without a computer...

chris's graduation is in a few weeks... he told me last week that i need a nice dress... after figuring out what type of nice dress i need, i found one that i thought would be perfect... and after i tried it on, it is perfect... wowza! that's what i've got to say... hehe... and i'm usually super modest, but this dress is amazing... i can't wait to wear it!!!

this weekend, i'm going to get a make over! i love those... they're always fun... and a sister from b'more is going to go with me... it's going to be exciting... can't wait till saturday!!!

halloween is coming up too... i'm not dressing up... but chris is... his costume looks amazing (he made it himself)... i'm not going to give away what he's going to be, but be sure to check back next week and maybe he'll have given me a picture to put up...

AWBC stuff is going well... my next fundraiser isn't for a few weeks... so i'm taking some time to just relax... still walking, though... got to really get my butt in gear pretty soon... only 184 days left!